2 hour post is 150. exercised, if you can call it that in this pain, for 20 minutes. my gut reaction is that something is wrong with my insulin batch. messaging the doctor's office and making an appointment.

i am back.
woke up at 8-ish, pain mostly in my middle back, pretty intense, about a 5. hips very tight.

112 fasting at 8:30. one slice white toast, two soft cooked eggs, one cup of tea, black.

i got reallly bored about 22 minutes or so in, changed the music, sped it up, got back into it.
i think that i am going to be in MASSIVE pain tomorrow because i am one sedentary bitch. the muscles in the front of my hipbones, oy vey. short and tight. noticed those especially. and my calves. lactic acid anyone? i have plenty.

forgot to take BG before. right now it is 77. i did not adjust my basal rate because i ate pizza for dinner and did a combo bolus. that, in hindsight, was probably retarded. i am going to shower, so i will take the thing off for about 20 minutes. will check before bed.

i don't care. that felt good. i am even a bit sweaty! i don't sweat like a normal person. it takes a lot to get me sweaty. exercise i mean.

in other bad sugar related news, my infusion sets and cartridges are in fact COPAYS, not an 80/20 split as i had feared. so that puts me at about 100 a month and change for my bad sugar meds.

shower. advil. possible ultram. bed. SRK movie. stat!

and time to make my off-schedule on purpose resolutions.

diet and exercise resolutions go here.

tracking pounds, inches.

also tracking BGs.

goals/schedule:

FOR FEBRUARY:

SATURDAY 1-30 MINUTES ON TREADMILL THEN BHANGRA PRACTICE PIECE IN THE MORNING.
SUNDAY 2-45 MINUTES ON TREADMILL IN THE MORNING.
MONDAY 3-45 MINUTES ON TREADMILL IN THE MORNING.
TUESDAY 4-45 MINUTES ON TREADMILL IN THE MORNING.
WEDNESDAY 5-BHANGRA PRACTICE PIECE IN THE MORNING.
THURSDAY 6-45 MINUTES ON THE TREADMILL IN THE MORNING.
FRIDAY 7-OFF
SATURDAY 8-REPEAT.
SUNDAY 9
MONDAY 10
TUESDAY 11
WEDNESDAY 12
THURSDAY 13
FRIDAY 14
SATURDAY 15
SUNDAY 16
MONDAY 17
TUESDAY 18
WEDNESDAY 19
THURSDAY 20
FRIDAY 21
SATURDAY 22
SUNDAY 23
MONDAY 24
TUESDAY 25
WEDNESDAY 26
THURSDAY 27
FRIDAY 28

got interrupted, and now too tired to finish. i am going to go see what 45 minutes on the treadmill actually feels like. shivers.

today.
issues to discuss:
the stronger insulin that will require less site changes.
being sick for the last MONTH.
birth control pills.

i need prescriptions for:
insulin, whichever we choose.
strips, the max amount with refills for my mail order.
brand name BC pills, if she will.

i have had my pump for one week today. i have had, by and large, way way better blood sugars with it, the only problem so far is lows. taking a lot less insulin.
actually, i am sick as a dawg today with a cold and i am about to leave for the doctor's with vincent, who is sick too. >:(
i will come back to this journal now and only talk about my pump issues here. i have an issue today, an emotional one, that i am afraid to be alone when i am sick right now. so i asked my mom for help and she is coming, but she wasn't going to at first, cause of her work schedule. this really hurt my feelings. i know it isn't her job to drop everything else and take care of me, but the last couple of times that i have broken down and actually said, "i need help" she hasn't exactly rushed to my side.
anyway, i will write more about that later. now, i will be grateful that she is coming over to help and not resentful that the first time i called to ask her she talked about work and when i said "never mind, i will be fine" she said "ok, call me later!".
i am a brat i guess.

i was going to go to the gym and i remembered everything but my towel. now all i can do at the gym is the treadmill, cause the weights get sweaty and you need a towel cause it is gross, and i obviously wanted to swim. and then, of course,reward my efforts in the hot tub.
i can do the treadmill at home, and i will.
going back to update the annoying food log.

8:50 am
fasting 101
novolog 12
symlin 120
total carbs 30
2 eggs 0
1 piece naan bread 30
1/4 c cottage cheese 2.5
s/f orange drink 0
2 hour post 97

11 am
novolog 6
total carbs 15
2 eggs 0
2 tbsb ricotta 0
half cup grape tomatoes 0
half a slice of naan 15
three and a half hours post 181

3 pm
novolog 20 (10 for meal, 8 for BG)
symlin 120
total carbs 18
2.1 oz combo grilled chicken and beef 0
1/3 c rice 15
one cup steamed veg 0
.5 oz teriyaki sauce 3
five hours post 149
five hours and 25 minutes post 131

was going to go to the gym, forgot my towel, planning on 20 minutes on the treadmill when i get home.

i see the diabetic nurse educator in one week, so here begins my food log. i HATE writing down what i eat, although i love that it keeps me honest. i just associate being obsessed with food as narcissistic, so i have to remember that i am not obsessing, i am being mindful and most importantly, i am researching to find what foods and combos gives me the lowest blood sugar, requiring the least amount of insulin, to cause the least amount of weight gain and produce weight LOSS.
i am going to update as i go, when i have time. i am going to post pictures for the next 30 days to keep me honest. i am going to do a nightly wrap up if i don't have time during the day to post as i go.

ok.
mondays i will go to the gym on mckinney, so that i can get home by 10:30 or so.
tuesdays i will go to the gym in garland, so that after i work out i can swim, even though i will get home later.
wednesdays i will walk on the treadmill at home after dinner.
thursdays i will go to the gym in garland.
fridays i will walk on the treadmill at home after work.
saturdays i will go to the gym in plano on my way to get vincent.
sundays i will be off.